dia lah Sinar

Adam... anak yang sangat comel...dia lah cahaya mata ku.. hadirnya dia dalam hidupku sangat sangat dihargai.

Sewaktu dalam kandungan, dia lah yang bersamaku.. dia mendengar setiap denyutan jantungku.. dia mendengar tawa nangisku... aku tidak kisah samada bayi ini lelaki atau perempuan... maklumlah anak pertama..

Dalam pada kandunganku berusia 5 bulan, doctor nak scan for baby gender... siapa yang tak nak tahu kan... masih segar dalam ingatanku.. aku berdoa pada Allah... " Ya Allah... dengan izinMU aku bakal jadi ibu.. rahsiaMu bukan milikku..namun aku hanya mampu berdoa akan samada anak yg bakal lahir ini lelaki atau perempuan, aku berserah padamu.. sesungguhNYA Kau maha Mengetahui dalam mana kekuatanku dan kudratku sebagai ibu bayi ini.. KAu beri lah aku seorang bayi yang sesuai dengan fitrahku, kekuatanku untuk membesarkannya dan yang paling penting dugaan yg bakal aku terima darinya sesuai dengan kekuatan dan kelemahanku sebagai hambaMu.."

Bila dah scan, doctor kata "BOY".. aku tahu suamiku mahukan baby girl sebab dia kata she can be daddy girl..tapi aku tahu dia tak kisah... dalam renungan matanya aku tahu dia bahagia.. dan aku nekad akan aku jaga kandungan ni sehingga dia lahir dan membesar... sebab itu lah hadiah aku sebagai isteri padanya... penat lelah dan sakit pening ku sewaktu mengandung hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu.. aku bersyukur dengan hasil scan yg menunjukkkan aku bakal dapat anak lelaki... aku tak tahu kenapa dan mengapa.. tapi aku pasti anak ini adalah pengikat kasih kami berdua.. dan dia lah pintu rezeki kami didunia dan satu satunya harta kami dia akhirat kelak..rahsia Allah bukan milik hambaNya..

my baby

"My precious little baby
I have loved you from the start
You are a tiny miracle
Laying closely to my heart."

Children are a handful sometimes, A heartfull all the time...

Now & Then

Now & Then . . .

I was browsing thru my baby's pictures and I came across his picture when he was just a day old and now being 5 months. So using the lastest app on my iphone, here is Adam Then and Now... Gosh.. I remembered those cheeks are just "munch-able"! LOL..

Actually he didnt change much from birth..Just that he is now losing that baby fats on his cheeks.. I used to wonder where he got that cheeks from..now I dont bother cause whatever it is, he is still my Adam.. Nothing can change that!

Alert! Beeeeg Alert!

Warning!!! Seriously & Fatally Cute and Adorable!

He is 6 months plus now and I brought him swimming at Bukit Batok CSC club last weekend and we even bought this baby float for him. (Will upload the picture soon..) But wat i adore most is his Bumble Bee swim wear.. Got this at NEX shopping centre a few weeks ago when I made my way there and found this selling at those push carts sale. For $15?????? I say its worth it..

Made him wear that last weekend and seriously he looks cute in it.. I bought a size bigger and the swim wear is a lil loose but not the cap.. It fits him well..he has a wide head circumference.. LOL..

I know some mommies told me that its not advisable to bring their baby to the pool.. Then what about those mini pool that they have in those shopping centre where they place the baby in the so-called jacuzzi..isnt it the same? Duh!!



Adam turn 6 months old

Turning 6 months old for Adam on the 9th October this year. He was becoming more adorable these days And the best part, he started eating now.. semi-solid food of course!!! :) *wink wink*

He's becoming a lil more weighty now that he drinks more than he used to.. He smiles and laugh a lot now.. which made me so eager to leave office and look forward to pick him after work every single day. His smile was the pulling factor. He recognised people now. He recognised those familiar faces he saw every single day.. and that, of course, include me, his mommy!!! I love when he smile when he saw me.. It was priceless!! Nothing can buy that in this world. I am so thankful to God for blessing with Adam in my life.

Adam,
u light up my life with your cheeky smile and laughter..

Words of Wisdom

Words of Wisdom

Gaya si manja Adam

Picture was removed. To avoid duplication my baby pic. It is only meant for those close at heart and not those who does not deserve it.

Comel anak ku... Sayang Adam..

Adam & his penguin

Thats my lil angel there.. when he was around 2 and half months old. Yeah I get people telling that my son look 4 to 5 months old. I know he's a lil big in size. Thank goodness, I bought most of his clothes at 6-12months sizes. My brother took this photo while he was chillaxing..with that lil penguin that Uncle Ash bought..but not for him though..  it was a good laugh.

Pleasure in Life

Adam Adryan was born on 9th April 2012 via ceasarian delivery. It was a tough call for me that time cause I was kinda expecting normal birth delivery. At 8th month check up with my gynae, he confirmed that "oh baby head down.. can prepare for normal delivery.." So as I waited for the moment of counting down or those painstaking braxton hicks or perhaps "oh no the waterbag burst!" moment.. yet I felt nothing as the day goes by.

Of course, as the day goes by, my tummy gets heavier and I get more lethargic at the end of the day. I tire easily and emotions was super sensitive. I dont know why but I kept having this feeling of lost and I am about to lose something or someone anytime soon. I pray hard it has nothing to do with my baby.

Come the 9th month...

my baby was actively kicking at night. he moves a lot and as usual, I would ask my husband to touch my tummy when he moves.. the funny thing, he stop moving when that palm rested on my bulging tummy.. and he would automatically start moving again once my husband lift up his hands from my tummy. I enjoyed those moments. I love this baby, come what may.

Then I went for my 9th month scan and monthly check up.. supposed to be my last check up before delivery.. and comes the moment of truth that really shocked me. The scan shows that my baby was in a breech position. Head up!! I asked the doctor who did the scanning like 3 times for confirmation. And yes!! My baby is in breech position at 9th month. I knew what lie in store for me when I went in to meet my gynae.

I remembered crying.. not because of regret.. but I was so afraid.. not because of the operation, but I was afraid that with this operation, I will take longer time to recover and thus, I wont be able to handle or care for my baby. Taking more time to recover means I will have to depend on people for some chores, which is something I was not willing to go thru.

I came home thinking what went wrong... then I realised what I just did was Wrong! I should not have think that way. I knew I never did anything wrong. God was testing me. He blessed me with this baby and I knew this is the start of my journey as a mother and it begins with this simple test from Him.

I embraced my fears for I know, God is with me.. God wanted me to give birth to this baby this way. It was no one's fault.

I thank God for such blessing and I knew His pleasures is nothing comparable to the biggest gems in this world. He bless me with a gem and his name is Adam Adryan. Alhamdunillah.

Just to share:

Firman Allah SWT - "Sesungguhnya sesudah suatu kesulitan, pasti ada kemudahan.."

Jaundice issues

My son, Adam when he was just a week old. I remember this was after he was discharged from KK for his jaundice on the 15th April. He was admitted to KKH as his jaundice level was lil more on the higher side. He was admitted on the 13th April and discharged on 15th April 2012.

God knows how it felt like when I came to see him on the 14th April. I cried when I saw him naked and placed under that blue light which they used on babies with high jaundice level. I met few new mommies who had the same fate as mine. They didnt cry like I did.. I dont know.. but I know I did cause I dont how to describe it. He is so small and left alone in that ward with his eyes shut and accompanied by the "blue light".

I was so relieved when he was discharged and be in my arms again. No one knew how I felt.. not even my husband.. Its a maternal thingy, u know.. and Adam... God knows how much I feel for u when u were warded for 3 days.

There he is, right after shower. Cik Nab bathe him daily for as long as my post natal massage is on. And I recalled buying that GAP baby blue pants for him at Baby Gap, JPO. I love it as it was double sided and can be worn for both side but I bought 0-3 months and it was a lil big big for him initially.

"Shhhhhhh..I'm sleeping in Style!"

He loves the swaddle and he seems to sleep soundly in that swaddle. He is one baby who loves being a baby. I came across a number of babies who doesnt like being swaddled. Mine does and somehow I know he didnt want to grow up so soon.. Sweet dreams, honey! Mommy will always love u.. til the end of times.



I am Adam Adryan

Adam Adryan

p/s: My first wink after my first breath.. Hello World, I am Adam Adryan!

And I love my mommy...